Be weak and just follow with willingness and trust..

So I have amazing people in my life that challenge me to allow myself to be weak. However, I am dumb. This week I have opportunities for that and what do I do- withdraw. I do not want to be transparent when it's hard. I don't want to have attachments. I want to be free, but where my dumbness tries to take me is not freedom. I don't want to need support. However, God is faithful. I asked my pastor/former youth pastor what he saw in me when I was in sixth grade, why did he invest so much time encouraging and challenging me to be a woman of God? When most would not see what he did. He said I had the willingness. I do not want to lose that. Willingness to go and courage to stay is what I need. There is so much unknown and gray areas in my life. But God is faithful, knows what's best and promises that He who began a good work in me will continue to carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. (phil.1:6)

Enjoy. Be Silent. Take Courage.

I have arrived in Florida for the week. So awesome enjoying the little, great gifts such as weather, coffee, and thinking about how the things God is done. How faithful and good God is! Yesterday, when I arrived I had a great time with a close friend since childhood. It is interesting trying to explain how God has led me up to these moments because even I don't understand. I can't wait to see how it all comes together because even when I see little glimpses now of how things come together- it blows my mind! Why do I become dumb and not trust after all the Lord has already done?

Perspective and Simplicity

This week has been a challenge because there are so many tasks, duties, and assignments.  I am presenting on the discipline of simplicity tonight for Spiritual Formation and it is such ironic timing because I really do not feel simple.  However, I have been challenged to open my eyes to see with faith how God is here and working. To lay down my pride and attempts of self-sufficiency to become dependent on the grace of Christ.  Many times I sadly spend more time on listening to my lies of doubt rather than seeking and speaking truth.  It is time to take my thoughts captive. To rest in the Truth. To be still and let God fight for me. I want to be free.