It's been such a crazy season of growth and transformation for me. Christmas break was a great time of living in community that I take for granted sometimes; as well as a time of healing. It's weird allowing myself to feel things. Let God really enter in to those deep parts, or better yet, let others do so as well.
Then comes tonight which was an amazing night... I'm involved with this youth group in Asheville who I staffed at Snowbird. Tonight I go on to youth group, almost not feeling like it or sure if I should spend the gas money- since that's a bit tight right now. On my way I'm thinking about how I miss the simple things and past times in my early youth group where we would spend quality time seeking God in prayer, yes simply prayer. My friend EJ, also former swo staff, then informs me that one of the youth, Addyson, has been in a car accident and we should spend some long time in prayer- freaked me out for a second because she neglected to tell me first thing that Addy was ok. Then we all meet, Addyson included, and she tells us how the wreck was so terrible that she should be dead and people who witnessed it could not believe she made it.
Last week we talked about (from Lamentations) how even though difficult things may be going on- this I know to be true, the Lord is good. God has a plan for Addyson and all the youth that were there tonight. We had some good time of sharing but then ended on our knees before the throne of God because even though we don't deserve it, God has a plan and a huge part of it was having Christ make a way by paying our debt. I prayed that we would hunger for the Lord on my way to youth, but did not expect to be so blown away by having the opportunity to be crying out to God with them. Seeing their honest prayers before God was amazing. We realized more tonight how short life can be and how it's eternity that matters, not the things in this world that are here today and gone tomorrow. These are the moments I live for.
